It is close to a year since I wrote a post. Increasingly it felt so futile, even silly, an idle indulgence of a passion to write that was leading me nowhere that I could no longer bring myself to continue writing.
Today I break the silence that had kind of overpowered me for the past year, essentially to record an important event in my life: I completed reading a book that I realised is important to me after I finished reading it: Ivory Throne by Manu S Pillai.
In terms of reading 2020, has been the most productive year in all my sixty one years in terms of the number of books I read in a single year. Eight in all so far. Starting with Sri M's Apprenticed to a Himalayan Master, Shiller's Finance and the Good Society, Nudge by Thaler and Sunstein, Sapiens by Harari, Big Billion Startup by Yogesh Dalal, Social Entrepreneurship by Boorstin, Patient Capital by Lerner and and now finally Ivory Throne by Manu S Pillai.
In between I nearly completed reading Mazzucatto's The Entrepreneurial State, a book that I hope to complete soon God willing. And several more that are between a third and half complete.
Sapiens and Ivory Throne changed my life by changing my thinking and understanding of issues I care about deeply.
Sapiens changed my understanding of the evolution of human beings. It made me realise that much of our attention to the story of human beings is focused on events that took place over a trivially small fraction of the history of the species homo sapiens from the genus homo. And if it had not been for certain evolutionary accidents the story of the genus could well have emerged differently in a way that I might not have been writing this piece of inane prose.
Was that an accident? Was it an Act of God? Was that part of a grand design in the process of evolution that humans are yet to understand? Harari does not answer that question.
But this post is not about Sapiens. That book requires a full length post of its own which I know I will never write. This post is about Ivory Throne, a history of the State of Travancore.
Ivory Thrones (IT, hereafter) completely rewrote my understanding about the part of this planet that my family and I hail from: The State of Travancore.
Until I read IT I was simply fond of Travancore as a part of the larger state of Kerala. My love for its people was often confused by their traits that puzzled me. IT did not resolve the confusion entirely. It did reassure me that these traits were many centuries old. And so it consoled me that it must have been part of their genetic make up in some way.
IT will easily be the among most memorable books I would have read to the day when I will have to stop reading because I would not be able to see any more or my brain would be unable to process what my eyes see. As I advance in age I often remind myself of that inevitable denouement because nearly everyone who has claimed to be able to call the future that I have known among my acquaintances have assured me that I will live that long.
Maharani Sethu Lakshmi Bayi, the principal character in the book IT will always stand in my memory as the personification of stoicism, although in the entire length of the book the author surprisingly does not use that term even once among the hundreds of words he uses to describe her personality.
The book made me revise or form new opinions about many people and events surrounding the place where I grew up. It made me revisualise in that historical backdrop the life that important people in my life such as my paternal and maternal grandfather and my own father must have led. About prominent people who defined the history of the state such as Sir C P Ramaswamy Aiyer. And much more, many more.
I hope God will help me write a fuller post on the book and my emotional journey as I plodded through its 550 pages excluding the bibliography of another one hundred pages, over seventy days or so, sometimes a few pages a day, many long days of no reading and so on. Probably the last post I will write for some years to come, if not forever.
I am not sure I will get to write it though. The things that I have to say do not appear worthy of being told any more. They were never profound in any sense to begin with. I am squarely in the throes of an once aspiring writer's ennui.
For now I just wish to close with the most memorable line about the Maharani from a speech by her grandson Balagopala Verma, quoted in the book, that brought to my eyes tears of admiration and sadness at the same time.
"It was only later, looking back at her life, that I came to realise how much change she had had thrust upon her. One day, a little girl playing in her own backyard, the next day a princess and a queen, and then back to being an ordinary person. Throughout it all she conducted herself the very same way, with the same qualities of approachability, integrity and dignity. Perhaps the biggest lesson that I have learnt is that a person must stay the same whatever life throws at you." (p 536)
The story of every human is in some sense the story of moving on, of dealing with the vicissitudes of life, of coping with ones that are painful, accepting graciously those that bring joy and pride. The difference between an evolved mind and the not so evolved is the ability to "stay the same" as the Maharani Sethu Lakshmi Bayi of Travancore did.
Thus it is with a heart overflowing with recollections, reflection and emotion that I close this post on this day that I completed reading the book.
Nanni. Namaskaaram.