This is a topic that I have wanted to write on for some time, from nearly around the time
I started writing blog posts. But I
never got down to. It is a topic that
engages me a lot mentally. I wish I could
say it engages me intellectually but I know that would be facetious, if not presumptuous.
In spite of all the time I have spent thinking about it all these years I have made
little progress in understanding it well – the question of my relationship with
the Almighty.
At one level I sense that the
whole idea is foolish. We are told that
we are all nothing but manifestations of the Lord himself. The Swami of Puttaparthi would often address
everyone in the audience as Embodiments of Divinity. So where does the question of a relationship with the Lord
arise?
At another
level many of us keep going back to the Lord in whatever form we revere Him, asking for
various favours or at least for His Grace in general.
My own
relationship with the Lord has often been transactional.
I am constantly asking Him for something or the other, ranging from the
trivial most of the time to the sublime on some very rare occasions. Or what I think is sublime.
And then I wonder how does He process all these requests.
Here is where the true limitations of my cognitive abilities and my
non-existent knowledge and imaginary intellect kick in. I wonder about how He might go about His duties,
referencing His functioning against my own, replete with my numerous limitations and innumerable
personal foibles. My nine year old elder (twin) son must be
closer to reality when he tries to benchmark his own game against
that of masters like Andy Murray than I am in
trying to understand the working of the Lord in terms of my own standards of functioning.
In my endeavor to redeem myself of this embarrassing ignorance I
indulge in some desultory reading. One of my categories in this genre is
the writings of Swami Ranganathananda, a monk of the Ramakrishna Mission,
who tries to juxtapose ideas of spiritualism and religion with developments
in scientific thought, drawing upon the writings of Haldane, Huxley and Capra
to explain the nuances of the Upanishads and the sacred texts of other religions.
I guess that this category of
writings appeals to my intellectual pretenses and that is the reason I
fancy them over others. It probably makes my beliefs appear to be rooted in rigorous scientific thinking when I say that they are drawn from the works of writers like Gary
Zuvak and Frijtof Capra.
These writings
constitute an antidote to the assault of writers like Richard Dawkins on our
traditional faith in God; faith from which I draw much comfort in the conduct of my
day to day life, even though I am not sure what the nature of true faith is,
even though I have experiences in my own life that I could not describe as
anything other than miracles.
In a sense
these writings accord intellectual legitimacy to a thinking and a set of beliefs that would be
otherwise considered reactionary in the social and professional circles in
which most of us move.
But deep within
me I felt that at the end of all the persuasive discussion in these writings there seemed to
exist a conceptual chasm between science and religion / spiritualism. At the end of all the very well-constructed arguments there was always a need for a leap
of faith of sorts to arrive at the idea of God.
In my endless quest for bridging that chasm I recently came across this book, Why Science Does Not Disprove God by Amir Aczel, when I was sauntering through
the campus book store. In the process of evaluating this book I came across an interesting article. I enclose a link to the article.
The article
seemed to address this confusion in my mind that I had been struggling to resolve all these
years. Net net, the article seems to say that the twain, namely religion and science, shall possibly never meet. And
our acceptance of one over the other has to be a matter of Faith.
Interestingly, for all the intellectual
rigour and logical water-tightness that we associate science with, given its advancement
in the six centuries and some decades, starting with the Reformation and the formal
advent of scientific thought into modern civilization, many areas of science still seem to require a pinch of faith too.
As for the
idea of God, it does seem to fall squarely outside of the domain of the human
intellect and into that of experience and Faith. This is where I consider myself
fortunate. There are many instances which I can explain only as His largesse, including the job I presently hold.
Will the Lord always bless me with all the candies I ask Him for? Possibly not. I can think of many instances in my life where my requests have been turned down, including some recent emotional travails.
Will the Lord always bless me with all the candies I ask Him for? Possibly not. I can think of many instances in my life where my requests have been turned down, including some recent emotional travails.
In the final analysis science
appeals to the rational intellect for sure; but then it quickly runs off the shores
of understanding into what feels like the dark and vast expanses of ignorance. Those expanses feel like the deep dark oceans of nothingness that man and his
intellectual vehicle, science, drift into, quite like an astronaut tethered to his
spaceship.
I find that the idea
of God, in whatever denomination one may like, is a pragmatic alternative at
this stage. And one that I am comfortable with and convinced about after many
years of intellectual turmoil.
Nanni…Namaskaaram
Sir,
ReplyDeleteI wasn't mature enough to place myself in perspective vis- a- vis what is clearly beyond my perception; yet, I wasn't spared of the travails, either! It seemed to be an eternal battle between my limited knowledge (despite intermittent additions) and my limitless ignorance (despite occasional spiritual upgradation at the end of each turmoil). I have now reconciled myself to this fact and a trying to cope with it!
Regards,
Mediocre
Each of us has a place in the Grand Design, including the smallest of mites that our untrained eyes may not even notice. The key is to accept that Truth. But accepting it is more easily said than done. That is why we all cast about in our own unique style and fashion. That is also part of the Grand Design I think.
DeleteHow does one go about one's day to day life? I found an answer to that question in an interview with Ramesh Balsekar, sometime referred to as Destiny's Child. He advises: Go about your life as if you are in total control. But recognize every moment that you are not.
Again, a simple prescription but a tough routine.
Absolutely, Sir!
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